I'm on day 17 of a raw food experience. I say experience because I don't want to put a framework on how long I'm doing this. I'm eating as close to 100% raw as I can, without beating myself up. This has meant 17 days above 90% raw, and an unprecedented energy level. I've shifted from my teapot full or more of strong black tea with soymilk, to one cup of green tea daily.
I'm in my busy season, so I've not yet found a great deal of time for experimenting in the kitchen. However, it's the peak of summer, so individual fruits and veggies are amazing on their own. This has truly been much easier than I imagined. Part of the ease is that I found an online community that is sharing a 100 day raw food challenge. It's hosted by the very clever and very entertaining Bunny Berry. I was invited to the group (you can't get there without an invite apparently, which adds to the feeling of a shared private space) 4 days after the challenge started, so I suppose I'm not 'officially' a challenger, but I've never been one to be kept out of a party where I really want to be.
There's an inner conversation here about weightloss, and health ... that I want to explore more. Something I heard a couple of weeks ago spurred some thoughts around this: while I live the vast majority of my life from a place of responsibility ... I was still living as a victim in regards to my metabolism/genetics/weight. In that, I'm saying that I am clear that my thoughts underly my actions, and I am responsible energetic-ly for all of the events in my life. I truly believe this. Whether I set them up as lessons, or whatever, I believe that events and circumstances are a part of my life as I line myself up for further unfoldment. I found that in regards to weight, I had that parts of it were "not my fault".
So in late July, I 'got' that I was out of integrity around my food choices in relation to what I was 'saying' that I wanted. I had slipped back so far as to have bought "diet" products with multitudes of artificial ingredients, because I was just going to work the program as it was designed (that program being Weight Watchers), in order to lose weight. Now my visualization is "I am a healthy, happy, and fit 130 pounds." My vision of 'fit' does not include artificial sweeteners, and I prefer an alkaline pH for my blood. None of this was being addressed as I bought light string cheese and Weight Watchers' yogurts and breads.
I had done an alkaline diet in the past. I'm pretty good at it, but it felt restrictive to avoid so many fruits ... summertime being the worst time in regards to that. It (the alkaline diet) includes grapefruit, lemons, tomatoes and avocados, so I did okay in winter, while living at our citrus/avocado orchard. In comparison, a raw vegan diet is almost luxurious. I mean, after counting points, or avoiding fruit, or nuts ... to be able to eat as much as I want, whenever I want, so long as it's raw and vegan ... heavenly ... really.
How I ended up here is a story in itself. I'll leave that for another post. Suffice to say that the moment I noticed a victim mentality around food or weightloss, the Universe began conspiring to send me tools with which to attend to my needs.
Rhonni
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